Christmas!

Well, 95% of my vacations were awesome. I babysat my boys for a couple nights, which is one of my favorite things to do: look at those happy, joyful faces during the day as they play and during the night as they tenderly sleep. Got many hugs for the 24th and the 31st and i totally love being with my family! I totally loved the atmosphere of being together with some music playing...getting ready for the midnight party and being able to be together and not go to school for a couple weeks. Something amazing that happen the 31st was one of my grandma's friend's daugher was kidnapped but returned save and sound that day. So, that was the biggest blessing of the day. Spent lots of time home resting and just being around at my house. I got gifts and just loved the fact that each year i realize more and more what christmas is.

Now, that 5% was really bad but i think everything turned out i bit good or at least not as bad as i thought it was. As many temptations came along and bumped into my face and i failed to stand firm in them. As people who i dont like appeared for a couple minutes of my life i felt like the world ended. i felt a horrible unsettlement in me and i wanted something i couldnt do or have. As this things happen i knew God was with me. That everything was being held for a reason and as everything happen i knew that i have my rock and strength beside me every minute!

As people fail we think and judge. We always think that we have to be perfect as Christians, that we need to be perfect to be loved, we totally judge thinking that way. Well in this case, i judged my own self, but i said it all came to be not as bad. these things were to call me, so that i could realize where i am and where i am to be. who i am to be in this world. God's presence is in my life...and i now am realizing and keeping that alive!