I will take care of you.

"I will take care of you! I will cleanse you Heart! Come to ME!"

This is what I hear eery night when i cry myself to sleep. those are the tender words I hear every moment of my despair on this earth. Every time I cry or am feeling down, I hear a tender voice saying those words. "I will take care of YOU!" I wonder where that love comes from. Those perfect eyes that see everything I do, why do they still love me? I've tried to start all over so many times. I ask for forgiveness, cry for help, confess, and even tell myself how I will do it this time, but it never works. I try to distract myself, do other things, show love, do what I am to do, but it is there, each time I just fall and say to myself, "maybe next time." But what will happen next? Where is my life going now?

I have now learned it is not about me, but about the world. It's them who I pray for. The world is the one in need of help. The world need the prayer of love. As for me, maybe I have despair at time. Maybe I lose it sometimes and need strength to stand once more, but I already have God ON MY SIDE. The world is the one to be prayed for and that is why i am here for. I am here to show them love and that I see them with the same perfect eyes God sees me when I stumble and fall.

God prepare me.