Pain disease

Pain is the bomb throne to my heart each day.

I am only fifteen struggling lots,

and here i am, in the midst of dismay.

I wish I could throw it all in the pots.

I barely believe what is going on,

I wish i could turn and change all i did,

but now it's too late, I want to go stun.

Though I cant do that, I know I forbid.

If my honest comes, i don't trust a “wow.”

It is a cycle that always gets flopped.

I want to trust Him, and not forgot how,

I need to trust God, and never get mopped.

My heart is real tired and feeling like crap,

but He wipes all off, and makes me a trap.